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I'm getting sick and tired of "bad days". You may think, why don't you just make them good days? Well, I'm trying. But nothing seems to be working. Yesterday I went uptown for noon with Stephanie, but not before I managed to upset my mother and in turn that upset me. Uptown I went the the dramafest auditions... I did the opening speach from Aladdin... It made people laugh (especially when I, instead of saying "lamp" said "Ucan fastening parts"- or somthing to that effect... it was the box which I had picked up off the stage to use as a prop...). So that was all good. Then I found Chris and gave him his Birthday card and some fresh baked cookies I made for him. Then if was off to the guidance center... where hell hit...
I don't voluntarly say, "I'm going to get upset now". It just happens. A force boils up inside of me and my body tenses and my hands clench and I sob and cry. I wanted to run from the room. I wanted to throw things and break things. I wanted to jump out the window... but I surpressed it all into crying and clenching my fists.
Luckily Stephanie was there with me... so nothing "bad" was really going to happen. Then we went uptown... I don't even really remember what happened for sure... I think we went to a couple record stores and the "Feel Good Store"... I got some orange oil and some strawberry green tea. Then we went to Java Moose, and I got some food and such from the market... Then I went to my appointment... and left... and went to Stephs... I was planning on catching a bus up to Hartland... but that didn't happen... and I ended up at home, where things preceeded to get worse. Nevertheless, I made it through the night. And here I am. I might be going to Hartland today, in which case I won't be updating for a couple days.
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