Life's Insanity!  

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I am uber stressed lately. I have not been doing my school work on time, I've been working crazy hours, and have overall just been pissy. I have recently started a second job (some of you may have encountered me at it), and I don't think it's going to work out. My schedule is just getting too crazy and I feel like I am being pulled in many many different directions and have no power over it.
I just don't like myself lately. I've been unhappy with a lot of things, and frustrated with myself on a daily basis. I really do not like feeling this way. I have been having unpleasant ideas and thoughts that scare me, and although I know I have control over my actions, I am just scared that someday my emotions will overtake me and I will do something stupid. It's frustrating. I have nightmeres about once a week, and when I wake up from one I just feel so terrible. I know I need to do something I am just not sure what.
I'll figure it out... I always do.

  posted by">Hayley @ 1:58 PM


Monday, May 28, 2007  


So, Ems and I have determined that my life is a sitcom. Seriously... strange or crazy things always seem to happen to me. It's odd. Someday I am sure I will find ways to avoid such situations, but at the same time I am like "you only live once, so have fun while you can". Considering I have learned the art of having fun and still making A's I dont think I have too much to worry about.
Sometimes I think people are too uptight in life. Really, why can't people just laugh and enjoy life. There's no reason why you cannot be reasponsible and have fun at the same time. I think that is the key- finding the balance, being able to do both. I have fun, hang out with friends, go to plays, go to shows and bars, but at the same time I make A's in my classes, I do all my reading, always show up for work, and get done what I need to get done. The issues come when one is too far to one side or the other. Too much partying or too much school can both be bad, in my opinion.
Anyway, speaking of being responsible, I have dishes to do. And I want to start reading my Canadian Politics text to prepare for my intersession course.

  posted by">Hayley @ 6:31 AM


Sunday, April 22, 2007  


My life has been kinda normal and consistant lately... which is odd for me. Got finished up my big projects, and now I'm just preping for my two exams, neither of which I am overly worried about. I've done all the reading and gone to all the lectures, so I am pretty well prepared just from that.
I've had some good times hanging out with friends lately... I have been in a few ackward situations with a couple guy friends- people I used to date, but now I am friends with. I think guys find it difficult to grasp the idea of just being friends. I guess I am just not in the mood for a fling of any sort, so I have really put my foot down and made it clear that we're just friends. The next relationship I get involved in I want to be more meaningful than my past ones. Otherwise I just want friendships. I don't have time for other drama.
I've finally decided what classes to take this summer- intro to sociology and intro to canadian politics for the first six weeks, then intro to macroeconomics for the second half. Get some of the low lever pre-reqs so I can get into meatier courses next year.
I'm also pondering the idea of getting a second summer job... I've asked my manager for more hours, but I am not sure if she will be able to accomodate me or not. I've been offered a couple shifts a week down at Quality working in the kitchen... could be fun, and at least it's close by and not a major committment, and doesn't require time job hunting, and could make up for the lack of hours at RW.
Otherwise my life is pretty normal and standard right now... hence the lack of updates...

  posted by">Hayley @ 7:05 AM


Wednesday, April 18, 2007  


Oh man, was yesterday a crummy day. See, Monday evening I ran into a friend that I havn't hung out with in forever, so we ended up getting a bottle of wine and hanging out till late- which meant I was completely neglecting my assignment I had to do for last night. So I woke up late yesterday morning, and ended up having these little mini anxiety attacks at the thought of trying to write this paper in record time. So I sat down to write it, and discovered it was a hell of a lot more complicated that I thought it would be.... I had to write 4 pages on the rationals of the International Criminal Court and International Truth Commissions. Alas, this was not as easy as I thought it was going to be. So I spent the afternoon researching and reading to get information on them, looking at lots of UN sites, especially on the International Criminal Tribunal for the Former Yugoslavia and the International Criminal Tribunal for Rwanda. Pretty fascinating stuff, in my opinion. I learned a lot.
Buuut.... by the time I spent the afternoon reading about all this stuff, and understand it, I had like 3 hours to write the paper. I did it. It was shit. I didn't even have time to reread it before I handed it in. But oh well... I made two A+'s and an A on my other papers, and a A+ on my midterm, so even if this one gets me a B than the others should hold it up. Uugh... needless to say, by 8pm when I handed it in last night, I was a giant ball of stress.
So I have one major project left for next Wednesday. Woot! I will survive!!

  posted by">Hayley @ 5:41 AM


Wednesday, March 28, 2007  


Well, alot of nothing has been happening in my life lately. I'm desparetly trying to write my Children's Lit paper, but feel really uninspired. Unfortunatly this course was not as enjoyable for me as I had hoped it would be. I get an immense high off of analysing complicated literature- never have i longed for Woolf, Joyce and Donne more. Obviously there is meat to the Children's texts, and there are underlying themes and ideas and stuff. But I am just a little bored with it, and therefore writing this essay is turning in to a rather hellish situation. I may have bitched when I wrote on Woolf last semester, but I would do anything to go back to that essay now.
Otherwise I have been tweeking course selections this week, and talked to a prof the other day about what courses I should be taking for my IS Major.
Um, I hung out with some friends on Monday and on Wednesday evenings. Felt kinda sick yesterday so I took lots of cold pills and got a good night's sleep and feel better this morning. Am becomming increasingly addicted to Facebook. I think that's about it. Alas, my life is boring.

  posted by">Hayley @ 5:33 AM


Friday, March 23, 2007  


If anyone goes to Glass Menagerie tonite and see's Jay, can you let him know that I am sick and won't be making it out to the show tonight, and that I am really really sorry. (He offered me his second ticket.) I do not have his tel number, but hopefully he will get my email...

  posted by">Hayley @ 12:29 PM


Thursday, March 15, 2007  


If my life were a movie:

Opening Credits: "Queen Bitch" by Bowie
Waking Up: "Why Don't We Do It in the Road" by The Beatles
First Day of School: "Everloving" by Moby
Falling in Love: "Nausea" by Beck
Fight Song: "When Push Comes to Shove" by Grateful Dead
Breaking Up: "Nowhere Man" by The Beatles
Life's Good: "Time" by Pink Floyd
Mental Breakdown: "Jesusland" by Ben Folds
Driving: "Bootleg" by CCR
Flashback: "Michael" by Franz Ferdinand
Getting Back Together: "Don't Pass Me By" the Beatles
Wedding: "Wild Honey Pie" by the Beatles
Final Battle: "Speak to Me / Breathe" by Pink Floyd
Death Scene: "Run for you Life" by the Beatles
Funeral Song: "Easily" by Chili Peppers
End Credits: "21st Century" by Chili Peppers

  posted by">Hayley @ 11:43 AM



Well, March Break is over and I officially didn't complete one assignment or finish one book. Fuck. That's all I have to say. Stupid work. I ended up working extra hrs, which is good $$wise, but not good because it means I have a lot of work to do between now and the end of the term. Oh well. I have two assignments *almost* done, and one book *almost* finished. That's counts for something.
I went to see Music and Lyrics yesterday with my mom- it was very cute.
Um, other than that I have no life and nothing interesting to report.

  posted by">Hayley @ 10:28 AM


Monday, March 12, 2007  
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